c'est la vie..

and at the worst timing too. i hate burn-out periods when i just bitch and bum and do nothing and be ignorant and blissful for a few days. with the whole week of not going to school, having bronchitis and missing classes, it’s really biting me in the ass. the whole year i’ve kept a healthy go to sleep by 12 and stop doing homework by 11 and whatnot. nope. the allnighter kicked in today, and the worst part is, i’m not even tired. stupid break. stupid procrastination. its 130 and i’m here on tumblr. fack.

what’s funny is that when i do get my motivation back, i’m looking all the the due dates and the homework and the hockey games and the buying presents and the somewhat social life and onroads/driving school and. this is gonna be a hellish 2 1/2 weeks before christmas break

momma comes home on wednesday :D need to get my ass back on track. i want to feel productive and on track and improving my future. i love that feeling. and i need to clean my room ontop of that, since i look like a 40 yr old lives in his mom’s basement SLOB. and i need a job. (LAURRRRRRRRR SOOOON x.x) bleh. need to invest in like, 5 hour energies. excited for fwiday, xmas decorating and lights and stuff and have him over and chull wif familia. then saturday back on track with piano (played today, felt good) rallo’s birthday dinner at barcelona downtown at 6, then so so so sos ossos os os much homework. it’ll be worth it though. gettin shit dooooneee.

HOCKEY SEASONS COMING UP! snows coming up! vermontskis coming up! through it all though, for some reason creepin on my moms itunes on this macbook of hers, violin romance by beethoven just seems to slow time down and just portray every emotion ive been feeling.. like just paints it out in words that haven’t been made yet to describe your experiences. and it’s calming. you feel in control for a moment.

ah, life. i welcome back the busy-ness of it all with challenging spirit.

G04L$ I WILL 4CHii3V3 Y0U.

‘promise me you’ll never leave me.’

body was drained last night.

ONROAD IN A HALF HOUR.

failing school once again.

someone send motivation my way.

4 hour driving class about drugs and alcohol with meg from 8-12 was absolute torture. came home and chawlled, then reunited with rem lolololol so funny. the black fuzzy pants! the toysrus story. christmas decorations! movie orphan. ribbed. phil lmfao lmfao lmfao ‘its wrapped in a cheeseburger wrapper’ oh yeah hibachi with whole family. so funny. japanese everything. he tried soup AND STEAK. so proud. saw sha poopfaces there. awk.

asian jokes towards vicki lolololol. trying to find the ‘pape’ the song. crying. teasing. laptop passwords. PUPUP! singing. ivideochats with joerap are so funny, talkin about our walltowalls and morphing and hearttohearts. dying from coughing. classy sweaters. xmas pwesents. soft skinz. insane heart beats. almonds.

whatta good night.

goodnight! gotta sleep and actually do schoolwork sortof tomorrow.

bipolarness. and tears and songs and lyrics and yelling and screaming and threatening and open secrets and calling out and figthing and apologizing and justadklfjakslfjas;fjkl.

im so tired.

*edit. some feelings are just so illogical. i didn’t really believe it in the movies until it just happened you know? its so frustrating sometimes. and unexplainable. and annoying. and im an emotional baby right now.

guardian angel - red jumpsuit apparatus.

let’s recap. thanksgiving was a success! too bad the leftovers have already been savaged. cooked and bonded with papa bonds and then watched movies and talked with him and whatnot. it was a chill thanksgiving. no family in this area (his are in california), moms gone for two weeks, and our couches are so effing comfortable<3 i’m gonna get so fat.

black friday. woke up later than expected- 6 since apparently i slept through my 430 and 5 alarm :( dad already went out without me to get his dvd player, mini laptop, and gps thingy, then i got ready, looked like poop, got dunkins, and headed to travel the universe since 7am. walmart, tanger outlets, clinton crossings, westfarms mall! was exhausted.

had no ride anywhere, but thank god emma drives. went to olive garden with emm mcnugg and meg and bonded a bit, jamming to the best cd in the car, buying ring pops and gum at expect, and watching NEW MOON. saw nick and angie there.. welll.. they saw me walk in since longlost bestfriend texted me saying where are you? are you in the theater or did i see your twin. (ps i was wearing my new glasses with my cuteass peacoat so i looked too classy to really see people, but hey, whatever) so me and angie texted on his phone aka me yelling at her saying jacobs the best the end, and saying hi to them afterwards. movie was pretty good, bella is a selfish bitch and i hate her! just saying. i gotta reread the 4th book again. oh and i lovelovelove mcnugg squeezing my hand and crying and laughing and fidgeting<3 hahahaha. drove meg home and then..

melissa calls vin. hes having a party at his house. all the summer people……. and he says to come. we go, with ‘on to the next one’ to pump us up. saw gabe, AUBRIE VOMITEVERYWHERE, antonio, vin, improta, joey, luca, ken, all of them. just chillen in vins room nbd. joey was civilized to me. luca idc about. jay lewis reunion. vin body tackled me.  gabe spoke to me hahahaha. hm let’s see. MARRIAGE. GUMMY BEARS. TEACH ME HOW TO JERK. PEPPERONI PIZZA. i just wanna be..i just wanna be successful. guys tshirt. mad booze (all didnt have any/:) macbook pictures. lights on and off o.0. rosaries. random ass people. designated driver fo life aka emm<3 had to leave early so we all said goodbye, then cruised home.

i survived! im tired. driving school 8-12 in the morning. until next time.